The Feels

I've been pretty moody lately.

You'd think that would be obvious considering I'm almost 10 weeks pregnant with baby #3. But it's more than that, or maybe it's amplified because of that. I don't know.

What I do know is I feel like I'm stuck.

I've started watching my 18 month old niece five days a week. I love being able to see her every day. I love being a part of her learning and development. I love watching my kids interact with their cousin, especially Samuel who needs a healthy dose of humility most days.

The one thing I don't like is feeling stuck at home. I feel that way a lot despite having Ellie or not.

I am a home body for sure, but being at home day in and day out 5-7 days a week really gets to me. I can easily fill my day between housework and caring for my children. But when I have extra kids over I feel I can't get anything accomplished. My laundry goes undone for another day. My floors become more filthy. Beds go unmade.

I've learned to not let the housework bother me.

What does bother me? Not having time to myself. ALWAYS being around children. No time to do what I love like read a book, take a shower uninterrupted, make cards…

I also don't have time for anyone outside of my house. I'm constantly around my husband and children, which most days is fulfilling and all I need. But recently I've been craving time with another married couple with children that both my husband and I can become friends with. I've been craving activities outside of my house. I've been craving time with our parents and siblings.

I'm tired of not doing anything. I'm tired of the mundane day-to-day routine that we can't seem to break out of even for a night.