30 Things: #6

What is the hardest thing you've get experienced?

Hands down, one of the hardest, and worst, experiences of my life was dealing with my parents divorce. It is true what they say, divorce is especially hard on the kids no matter the age. Looking back on it, though, the actual divorce was the easy part. The hard part was the events leading up to the inevitable and the events following. My parents divorced are much better than my parents married. I realized that then, and I realize it even more so now. My mom was not the perfect wife. Being caught in the middle of her shenanigans was excruciating. Being almost 19 I understood what was going on, and even though I didn't like it what could I say to my mother? My dad became distant, understandably so. That left me to deal with the broken pieces that were left behind. I had to not only carry my own burden, but also those of my younger siblings.

I'm still dealing with the after math of my parents divorce. Not only did i have to deal with my parents crumbling relationship, but now I've had to watch them both get divorced a second time, and see them accelerate relationships to the point of no return.

Being the oldest of 4 siblings sucks.

And I'm pretty sure this post made no sense.