So, I'll probably get in trouble for this...
.... but last night was my Mary Kay party. I had booked this almost 4 weeks in advance, made an event page on Facebook, and made sure all the Girl's Night regulars knew about it. I had every intention on making it a Girl's Night function. However, when I got onto the event page a few days later only ONE person from Girl's Night RSVP'd. Two immediately said "No," and the rest said "Maybe." I just figured maybe they didn't know it was for Girl's Night so I asked my best-friend about it. Nothing ever came of it. Well, last night NO ONE from the regular Thursday night group showed up. One had to work, one had to sleep, and I don't know about the rest. One friend I had invited never showed up and didn't text me until later that she wasn't coming. I was/am so disappointed and hurt. I don't understand why people think they can walk all over me. I think I'm so hurt by this because I thought these girls were my friends. For them to just leave me high and dry really hurt my feelings. Am I being juvenille?
Tomorrow marks 4 years since my grandpa died. My grandma wanted me to go to the cemetary today with her, but alas, it's raining. I was actually looking forward to it since I haven't been out there in 2 years. I still think about him a lot. I wish he could've known Claire because I know he would have been a great Great grandpa to her. I remember how much fun I used to have with him. When we lived in Lenexa I used to call him every morning to see if he'd come over to play with me. We would color, play dominos, play checkers... whatever I wanted to do. When my grandparents moved back to Wichita he picked me up from school everyday and almost always took me to QuikTrip to get something to drink. He would ask me to mow the lawn, go with him to put gas in the car, stop by and drop off bananas. I miss Poppa horribly. I can't believe he's been gone for 4 years already.
I have fallen off the Weight Watcher band wagon. Two friends have already lost 15 pounds in 7 weeks. It makes me sick to know that if I would've been hardcore about it I could've lost that much as well. I don't know why it is so hard for me to stay motivated. I want to be skinny again, and stop hating the way I look naked in front of a mirror. I especially want to lose weight before I have another baby. I want to be where I was before I had Claire. It's not an unrealistic goal. Only 15-20 pounds. And to think I could've dropped that in 7 weeks. Makes me sick!
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I know how you feel about friends flaking out on you. I felt that way about my baby shower. I was soo upset and angry about it, but didn't want to seem like a 5 year old brat and sounding like I planned the shower myself to be selfish. I just wanted an excuse to see my friends really, not a chance to get gifts. So I just want you to know how much it meant to me to have you send me a gift anyway! You sooo didn't have to.
Did you invite me to the Mary Kay thing? If you did and I didn't respond, I'm so sorry. I don't pay attention to events on facebook because all of the invites I get are usually all out of town or things that I'm not interested in. And if you didn't don't feel bad! It's harder to get together with friends out of town!
And about the WW thing... I totally didn't update about my loss to upset you! Please don't hate me. :( I know how hard it is to be motivated and trust me, I feel like it took me forever to get to the point where I was ready to start taking it seriously. I wanted to start back in November, but I didn't have the money or the will power at the time. Just don't be so hard on yourself and allow yourself to get to that point! You're ready when you're ready!
I hope your week gets better! I think I will be coming in town either the weekend of the 8th or the 15th. We need to go get pedis or go to the park or do something fun!
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